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Thoughts of Easter

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Jesus  My thoughts on Easter.He died for our sins… with arms wide open. Rio Cross

Jesus was here for the salvation of ALL Mankind, for the forgiveness of ALL of our sins. This is what I was raised with, and to me Easter… is by far the most important holiday, more so than Christmas. In “The Book”  I’ve read it does not say for the salvation of only a select few, it does not say for the forgiveness of sins of only a few.

While recently discussing my book, A Taste of Eternity, my girlfriend, a woman I love and respect, suggested that I should review my thoughts to know if I’m Christian. I appreciate her concern, and want to assure her I most definitely am a Christian! However I do not judge others for their beliefs. I was a little emotionally let down by her question but I trust that everything happens for a reason. I feel we are born into our social, and cultural lives for a reason.

I believe in the end only Kindness matters. I believe whether your Christian, Metaphysical, Mormon, Buddhist, Jewish, Muslim, Hindu, Scientologist, or Catholic you may just well be welcomed into Heaven. During my Taste of Eternity review I was shown that Love is the strongest energy and force in the universe. We’re all looking for something we can rely on, and love is the source most people need. We are all searching for that unconditional love.

I’ve been judged by friends and stranger’s over the past few years for my statement that I believe that the God I saw, the Divine Energy I met, the pulsating sphere of Total Knowledge, would not only let practicing Christians into Heaven, that his love seemed open to All. I’m sorry but I do believe this, the Love that engulfed me was far too great to be judging.Lily

Lord knows I am not a perfect person … I am only human, and we All fall short of what God wants of us. We’ve got a lot to learn but God knows we are worth it. As a human I cannot say why I feel that God is not judging, but I felt only love. My thoughts of late have been that perhaps at a person’s final moments, when we are in front of the Divine, our life review has passed through us and we encounter this magnificent love, perhaps then a non-Christian may have a moment that they may choose to believe in Jesus only. I don’t know what the final moments are for other people, I do not judge them, I pray that they call on their Angels for peace. The only thing I know is that for me the Heavens were full of love, beauty, and colors that would make the most spectacular Easter eggs ever. Eggs                            I send All my wish for A Happy Easter to every one.

 

 

 

 

 

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Signed – Publisher for A Taste of Eternity

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This February 2016 has proven to be a very fantastic month for me. After traveling to Frankfurt, Germany in October for the debut of my book at the Frankfurt Buchmesse, the world’s largest book fair, the flurry had started to settle down. Life was getting back to normal with the grind of learning a new job.

However, on the first week of the month, a box arrived, filled with over 20 copies of Der Duft des Engels, the German version of A Taste of Eternity, published by German publisher sorriso verlag. It was overwhelming when I saw my face in a photo plastered on the wall of the book booth in Germany, but to actually hold my book in my hands? With my picture on the back cover and “author” under it? Well, this blew me away.Der Duftdes Engels: book cover.jpgFM Christine and I

Now to top things off, for this magical month, I just signed a Publishing Agreement with Open Books Press to print A Taste of Eternity in English with a release date of September 1. If you’re an author, September 1 is one of the most coveted publishing dates of the year — it’s holiday shopping season, and a time when people start to move toward the holidays themselves… which have a central place in my book. I start the book with “life can be summed up in three words, family, adventure, and perseverance. “  This still holds true for me and it has been with all three that this loving project has been able to come full circle, and allow me to fulfill my promise that I would write this book.Open Books Press Publishing Agreement.jpg

I want to share a bit of the book to tide people over until the book releases on Sept. 1 (don’t worry; I will share more tidbits throughout the next few months):

 

 

CLIFF JUMPING WITH GOD and WRITING HIS BOOK, A TASTE of ETERNITY

On my 53rd birthday, my crazy streak popped up. Bob had seen it the previous summer, when we bodysurfed 10-foot waves in Carlsbad and marveled about it later on Oceanside Pier, which shook from the waves whose spray hit onlookers’ faces. He also remembered how, when we were in high school, I was one of the few girls to bomb down the steep La Costa hills on a skateboard.

This time, I outdid myself. While whitewater rafting down the upper Ganges outside Varanasi India, I celebrated March 16 in a new way — by jumping off 30-foot cliffs into the river. My fellow travelers, all in their 20s, wouldn’t try it. Neither would the Indian men standing on the edge. (In the photo in this blog, I jumped from a spot about 10 feet above them; this was taken in mid-jump.)Raft on Ganges India.jpgMe jumping of cliff into Ganges.jpg

But I jumped. I went for it. Why not? This is my life — and I’m going to live it to the max. I am not afraid of what comes next. I’ve seen it. I look forward to my return.

 

I continue to be excited and motivated by the visions I received during my near death experience, my Taste of Eternity.  I will also keep up my search and understanding about religions and how they are changed from the ways they were originally practiced.

I am a Christian, as in Jesus Christ is my divine teacher.  I completely honor other religions and know that the All Powerful, Loving God Energy I met in Heaven would not condemn others for following their religion with the depth of their heart and the example of their actions. My focus is to love and be loved, none of that judging and condemning stuff for me.  I know I am far from perfect (isn’t that an understatement), and I tend to over-react when I feel I’m wronged. This whole experience is not one I would ever change, my desire in writing this book has always been to share the incredible love and beauty I know awaits us when we die – we’re not alone as we travel to Heaven. God sends us each an Angel, and He is the one holding us in his arms all the way to Paradise.

 

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IMG_1293            In life (my whopping 54 years), I’ve noticed that every step, every experience, every encounter, and basically everything in life happens in order to prepare us for the next step to come.  There are no accidents in life.

            Often, the things that happen to us, or the stories we choose to tell, may not be occurring so we can learn from, but actually for others to learn. Something might happen that makes us wonder what am I supposed to learn from this?.  Have you ever had that thought of Why am I saying this right now?  Why is this the story I’m sharing? I sure hope no one hears me!  I believe that often, our actions or words are there for someone else who needs them — either to help, encourage, or serve as an eye opener for life’s learning.  I like to call this the trickle down effect

Think of the trickle down effect as a waterfall: each drop cascades into a pond of shimmering water that provides a fuller life.  I can also see my life in the same way; each step or action I take prepares me for the next step.

I was an athlete early in life. As the baby of five kids with three older brothers, I had to be athletic, just to be allowed to hang out with them.  If you want to run with the Big Dogs, you can’t pee like a puppy, right?

If I hadn’t been so athletic, I probably would not be walking now.  After my accident and taste of eternity, I was told I would not walk again. My family was also told that, more than likely, I would be a mental vegetable living in a wheelchair. To deal with this challenge, I needed the dedication that my high school and college athletic years trained me to have.  I had the focus to draw down into my gut and ache my way through to the next goal line.  Believe me, ache is a state of being after lying stiff in a coma for two months, and you suddenly tell your body it’s time to get up and get going again!

My athletic background got me ready for the focus I needed to put out my best efforts in rehabilitation.  After the rehabilitation, I loved to walk, simply because I could.   A grateful viewpoint can change your perspective when the only parking space available is the farthest away. 

Then came the next seemingly impossible challenge: I found in my lap (or P.O. box) an opportunity to fulfill a life long dream – doing a marathon.  I still wonder how I received the invitation to fund raise for diabetes, in a marathon, in the third anniversary month of my accident. On top of that, I’d talked about it the day before with my girlfriend Cathey Anderson (a fund-raising marathoner).  The VERY next day! Odd.  I had six months to train, and needed to increase from five-mile walks every day to 26.2 miles on race day. Thank goodness I could combine the athletic focus and grateful viewpoint.

While walking my miles, I share with girlfriends Judy Anibaldi and Lisa  my plan to fundraise via the marathon.  Sure enough, the trickle down effect kicked in. They shared my goal with their book club; one member of the group, Cheryl Walker, wrote for the San Diego Union-Tribune.  The article she ended up writing on me reached so many people that the donations poured in. Not only was I able to compete in a dream race, the Dublin (Ireland) Marathon, but I was one of the top fundraisers in the U.S.  I learned so much more along the way in terms of fundraising, and I’m now able to speak openly about my accident, and most importantly, my angel and Heaven.

My motto for the marathon was Yard by yard it’s hard, but inch by inch it’s a cinch.  During all of this, I raised more money than needed, and then met a 21-year-old girl with diabetes who was training for the marathon. She was having difficulty raising the funds needed to compete.  One day, while we walked together, she said, “When you’re meant to do something, the whole universe works together to make it happen.”

That really made an impact on me. I transfer my extra funds to her account, and we walked over the starting line in Dublin together.  Score another one for the trickle down effect.

images-11     The pond made by the trickle down effect continued to grow. An official at the hospital that first treated me, Palomar Pomerado Hospital, contacted me. They asked me to do fundraising in my area for a hospital expansion. I was elated to help; after all, their doctors and nurses saved my life. We had a helicopter presentation in my neighborhood to raise funds Second; I spoke at an evening event to a larger crowd,  and shared my hope: “We need to be a village and be able to take care of our village. Now please open your wallets and write a big check to the hospital.” That’s me – I tend to be direct!

People happily donated, knowing it could well be themselves who would someday need the hospital’s help.

Then my past modeling experience was called into play. The hospital asked me to shoot T.V. public service commercials to promote their larger vision. I find I became one of four advocates for a $496 million bond measure, vital for the expansion of all the Palomar Pomerado community of hospitals.  I was so grateful to give back. The ensuing article and commercials were fantastic – and an old classmate from my elementary and high school years wrote a letter to the editor in support of me. One of my girlfriends told me about it and identified him as “your boyfriend.” No boyfriend for me at the time; I was then married! I had no idea who he was.

In 2010, I was watching a friend’s band, and in walked the old classmate. My girlfriend was right – he became my boyfriend … ten years after he wrote that letter to the editor.

When I was in Heaven, I promised God that if I came back to this life, I would tell everyone how loving and great he is through sharing my story. I spent ten years after the accident trying to figure out how I would reach a larger audience beyond my smaller North San Diego County community.  It turned out this new love of mine was a long-time journalist and book author … hum.  Unfortunately, all my time was taken up working, just to keep my head above water in the expensive Southern California lifestyle. How was I ever going to write about this?

Suddenly, in 2011, I lost my job. That caused me to lose my home. Consequently, thirty years after last sitting in a classroom, I found myself back in college, taking those writing classes I desperately need to be able to write this book, lovingly and legibly.

Wow, who’d of thunk it … losing my job and home would be such a great thing, an open opportunity to move forward?

Often, when we lose hope and think it’s the end, God smiles from above and says, “Relax, it’s just a bend, not the end!”

I feel the trickle down effect still filling my life. I have been so deeply touched by the vast, happy and pleasant responses to my blogs and my effort in writing A Taste of Eternity.

           

Ways my Near Death Experience has changed my life.

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images  The course of my life and how I look at things, people, possessions, and events has definitely changed since my Taste of Eternity. I never really held much importance to things, but I certainly have enough of them. My life has provided many opportunities to deal with people of all levels in life, as well as social, spiritual, economic, or academic standing.

I have always felt that what’s truly important in life is to treat other people the way you would want to be treated yourself, to be aware of what others may be feeling and undertaking in their life, and treat or react to them accordingly.  “Do unto others as you would have done unto you” is my life’s motto.

As simple as this cliché may sound, I started looking at my reactions and treatment of others differently after my Taste of Eternity on Oct. 8, 1999.  I know… I may eventually have to physically feel their emotions or experience to my treatment of them.  I don’t want to have any negative events as part of my next life review.  Once is certainly enough. While having my life review and visit with God in Heaven, I saw that everything in life is connected and all things have a full life inside them – a full kaleidoscope of color, light, love and praise.

Currently, my life is entering a new phase, to which I’m trying to give a name, understanding, and purpose. I realized that, like they say, life comes in phases (say the seven-year phase). I’m now saying goodbye to the old phase of life and I’m about to enter my next one. I’d like to live every moment to the fullest. I have no fear of death, and want to experience every inch of life while I’m here on earth.  I do believe that all things happen in life for us to learn from. I feel this is the purpose for which we are here, to try and get it all together, before we have the opportunity to be in the beauty of the loving God.  No matter how differently we each may view him.

I continue to be excited and motivated by the visions I received during my near death experience.  I will also continue my search and understanding about religions, and how man changes them, from the ways they were originally practiced.  As I state in the final chapter of my book, A Taste of Eternity, I accept that I am a Christian, meaning that Jesus Christ is my divine teacher (my guru) I choose to follow in this life.  I completely honor other religions. I believe that the God in Heaven I embraced would not condemn others for following their religion.  As long as they do so with the depth of their heart and the examples of their life’s actions, as long as they are trying to do and be good.

I wish I knew my life’s purpose. At this point, I’m a bit lost on that.  A few years ago, I could have easily answered that my purpose was to raise smart, loving, and healthy boys that offered something to the people around them.  But today is different.  I want to share what I promised God I would, and that is that The Most Important Thing We Can Do On Earth Is To Give, Show, and Express Love.  There is no greater accomplishment.

After this experience, I will never be the same.  I view people and events in an entirely new way.  I know we must love each other!images-25

Love heals. If you doubt it, you need more of it.

How do you receive more love? By giving more.

Love is not just for people. Every body and living thing on earth is made up of essentially the same energy, particles, and spirit matter. Look into the eyes of every creature, your pet cat or a wild tiger. Take a detailed account of every mother-infant relationship, every friendship, every co-existence, every spirit, and you will see the need and desire for love.  Love knows no boundaries!

THE ANGEL:

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I was not alone! I was not aware of the accident.  I didn’t feel any of the pain.  I was being held so lovingly by someone I couldn’t see. I could only feel them.  It felt as a baby must feel when it’s being cradled in its mother’s arms.  As I lay there I could smell the dirt and knew I was on the road, but all I could do was watch the sky.  The sky was so beautiful.

As I lay there looking into the fabulous sky, I watched a star shooting toward me.  It came so incredibly fast!  It started at the distance of the stars and as it neared me, around 300 feet away, I could see that it was an Angel, not a star at all. As it got closer I realized it was my guardian angel. As I watched her near there was the most wonderful music, and all around her was the most incredible floral scent.  It was like the best garden on a summer day or the best perfume you’ve ever smelled.  It reminded me of a summer when I was about 6 years old, my grandmother was visiting from Idaho, we were in the Balboa Park Rose Garden in San Diego.  It was hot, very hot that day.  The Roses let out every scent they had, they had been sweating their sweetness under the smoldering summer sun.  The wondrous smell of Heaven… had other florals as well; I can still smell the tartness of a tuberose, the softness of plumeria, and the full blush of freesia.  After I came back from my taste with eternity I wore “Tea Rose” perfume for several years, and the other day I was at the Estee Lauder counter and they had a new perfume that enticed my memory again with a full body Tuberose floral, unfortunately it was too costly for me to treat myself to.  This is however on my wish list that I will someday treat myself with.

The Angel had no halo, but there was a golden glow all around her.  As I looked at this beautiful Angel I was focused on every detail.  She was hypnotic and so beautiful.  I felt that her light was too bright and her music too loud to be seen or heard by human eyes and ears.  She was not really male or female.  Her face was like that of a child right before puberty.  You know how they can look either like a boy or a girl depending on how you look at them.

The gown she wore was made of a silver fabric similar to raw silk, with the most intricate and awesome embroidery. It seemed to be made from real silver thread.  Her hair was shoulder length, a wavy light brown with blonde flecks.  She had wings.  They started at the back of her shoulder and went down to right below her knees.  They were iridescent.  You could see through them.  They had a sort of opalescent coloring. images-2

I was not greeted by anyone other than her.  She was so comforting and letting me know I shouldn’t be afraid that she was there for me and she loved me.  She was mesmerizing; I traveled up into the sky with her.  We traveled upward, it wasn’t really a tunnel but I can see how other people would describe it that way.  It was like the view from a jet as you speed past clouds, except you are rushing upward into the sky, not flying through it.  I consider a tunnel to be solid and as I shot upward I could see out and far beyond this space.  What astounding beauty!

images-12  I was seeing the most beautiful astral planes, skies, and landscapes; it also was the beginning of this new thing of being able to feel someone’s feelings, as opposed to hearing them.  At this point I didn’t see or meet anyone, but I was told not in words but through feeling that it was not my time.  I just sort of drifted in a calm state and could feel an electric energy filling my body.  As I drifted up into the sky I no longer had my angel with me.  Suddenly I was placed in a meadow that was wonderful; I had been placed there for my life review.   I was experiencing the most beautiful landscapes!   I say experiencing because I was feeling everything, not just viewing it or hearing it; you feel it in every cell of your body, and everything emitted a Love that was so immense, powerful, and complete. This vision was overwhelming.

I long to be filled with that complete Total Love again.

Starting the New Journey of Writing About Heaven

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Starting the New Journey of Writing About Heaven

images-1I had a near death experience following my car accident on October 8th 1999 – a day I will never forget. I prefer to call it a Taste of Eternity.

As I ascended the hill, the harsh light blinded me.  Afraid I might plow head-on into another car, I veered to the right, a side of the road lined with boulders.  I hit the boulders.

Upon impact, my front axle broke off. The car spun and flipped end-over-end, with me inside. The car spun wildly front to back, creating a centrifugal force that pulled on my body. I felt completely hopeless and overwhelmed. I gripped that steering wheel more tightly and screamed, very loudly, “God, oh God, please help me!”

This is where God stepped in and showed me he has a plan for us all.  There is no such thing as an accident, all things a of providence if we choose to see this Gods beauty will be exposed to us in everything in our world.

Now I’m writing “A Taste of Eternity” my memoir about this experience and the years that followed.  I’ll share stories from the book, some funny-some sad, as well as the many things that have happened in my life as  a result of my near death experience.

I’d love to hear from you about your thoughts of Life after Life.